Yesterday, time flew like an arrow.
I'm so happy to be able to see Hajime immediately
Besides, it's really important you don't have to go
to Orange County taking a whole hour,
especially for me, who has other school-children.
I don't have to do my children's assignment at the hospital.
His brother and sister also can see Hajime's face
as soon as they are back from school.
Hajime stays home; it means,
we are really close to each other in our daily life.
BTW, yesterday, November first, was so busy as well!!
Nurse came just before 10 o'clock in the morning,
and she helped me to give medicine to him,
and she gave a hand to many things.
Hajime is not so good, maybe because he's tired
from this and that just after he got out of hospital.
I'm worried about him if he is okay,
but it makes me feel better
to find him sleeping in the daytime.
To see him sleeping with a face like an angel,
I was kind of relieved.
RT came again today to give an explanation.
He was supposed to come from 4 to 4:30,
but he showed up after 5 eventually.
And his speech was really long.
Not only Hajime but all of us got exhausted.
It's really tough to give a care for 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
I'm feeling it from the bottom of the heart.
Not only taking care of my children and housework,
my husband's work and many other things,
but I have to care Hajime all by myself.
I'm really anxious if I can really do this.
But Hajime said to me, "I'm sorry".
He thinks it's his fault to give a big burden to me.
He looked so ssad.
We are always trying to care him without showing we're tired,
but Hajime knows many things.
Nothing is sadder than this.
I wish I can express those feeling.
I'm worried about Hajime's heart.
Translated by YT