My wish was that, "As we hold onto hope for a day to call an important tomorrow, the remaining time that we have together shall be peaceful as can be"
Mar 11, 2013
Thinking about All Kinds of Things
Hajime still feels restless.
I have received many messages in response to my last entry. There were various opinions, ranging from those of encouragement to those pointing out how my thinking was wrong. I am grateful to all the people who have written so sincerely to me. I can look at things from different angles. It is a good opportunity for me to think about Hajime's situation. To be honest, there are times, of course, that I get down. But I think it is important for me to consider his feelings by putting myself in his shoes.
When we think about our son's death, we feel only dread. I think this is something that only a parent who is caring for a seriously ill child can understand. Hajime has told us that, no matter what happens, he wants us to put him on life-support. We have the papers. That is what he wants, so we continue to cheer him on.
Hajime's feelings are temporary... This is what our trusted Mary told us. Everyone will have these feelings at some time...Even people who aren't sick will sometimes have these feelings. Mary said that is why we need to really listen to Hajime and understand his feelings. She is absolutely right.
Hajime is still depressed. But he doesn't tell us in words. I think it's because he can't get in the mood to do so. When he is ready to talk, I will listen to him carefully.